Normally I have a feeling in my gut, a good feeling and warm and cuddly feeling; but it’s gone, maybe it took a hopefully brief vacation. I get signs; little snippets to remind me of certain things, people, places. But my antenna isn’t getting any reception at all. Funny, I knew it the other day, the last time I had a feeling in my gut and it wasn’t a good feeling.
I know I can hear you all saying it, Right…Just like Bill Cosby does in his monologue about Noah and God, every time God tells Noah to do something, like build the ark, Noah says RRRRIIIIIGGGGGGGGHHHHHHTTTTTTT! Just the way you say something you don’t really believe but want to sound like you do. But I am serious and not happy at all.
Ok, now I’m going to sound like I’m a drop-out from the totally wrong generation. But I am an Aquarian and this feels like the Age of Aquarius is floating away; harmony and understanding, sympathy and trust abounding, no more falsehoods or derisions, golden living dreams of visions, mystic crystals revelations, and the minds true liberation gone, totally kaput. I am out of sorts and I want my sorts back.
This could all be my own version of spring fever and the desire for my vacation to hurry up and get here and then to go as slow as possible so I can savor every moment. I am hoping this is why my “senses” are off. The alternative is I’ve lost that loving feeling and to be honest that would totally suck.
So, if you’re out there listening or rather reading, oh wondrous feeling of mine, please please come back soon. I am totally absolutely lost without you, I can’t sleep, my eating is off, my barometer for life is flat. I have no clue why you abandoned me but I promise I’ll fix whatever I did to make you vanish. Seriously, if you don’t come back soon I think my muse for creative writing will abandon me as well and then you know what that means I’ll be up the creek without the proverbial paddle and my days of blogging will be over.
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